Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Wise as an Owl

Daniel 1:20
“And in every matter of wisdom and understanding about which the king inquired of them, he found them ten times better than all the magicians and enchanters that were in all his kingdom.”

Wisdom. I have been pondering this word for a couple days now. It all started with a gift I was given for Christmas. It was a simple bracelet with an owl on it. The significance of this was to show the wisdom of the owl. Which led me to think of myself, and why someone would choose this for me. Me?  Wise? I truly don’t see it. Often times I think I know what I am doing or saying and it is completely wrong, I think of the mistakes I have made and think hmm…that really was not wise of me, I could have prevented that. It many cases I probably could have changed things but many times when it comes to wisdom I think of people getting themselves in trouble and having the ability to get themselves back out still standing tall. The reason that the king counted these men as wise is because they had just been studying, and they had another factor working in their favor, God. In John 14:26 it says “But the helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you.” Without the Holy Spirit I am unable to be wise. It is through the power of Him that I can gain wisdom in Proverbs 2:6 it says “ For the Lord gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.” The Lord is the giver of all wisdom and understanding. He is the one that will give me all wisdom in all situations. So to access this wisdom I much take Him into ever part of my being. He is the one that can give me the answers and understanding to all the questions I have in life. Giving him my full heart, my full life, so that he can give me his wisdom to do his will. This is once again a crossroad that I come to what is it that he doesn’t have control of? What is that he still wants to show me? I will continue to ask these questions until he reveals it to me.

Growing Weary in Doing Good

Hebrews 12:3
“Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted.”
Have you ever grown weary in doing good? It can be a hard road sometimes. I have found while being here I have to remind myself why I am in this crazy weathered place. I daily have to strength and encourage myself in the one who has sent me. When I feel that the day are growing long and I find myself growing weary I do exactly what this verse says I consider Him who endured the cross. As the Christmas season is approaching I have been studying what Mary went through and how each step of Jesus life pointed to him ultimately dying for you and I on a cross at Calvary. He lived a sinless life know how his life would end. Do you think he ever grew weary? I’m sure he did, but he lived this life so that we wouldn’t. He lived so that we would be able to come to him with anything and everything and be strengthened in that. He lived this life so that we wouldn’t grow faint, so that we wouldn’t be weary in doing good.

            Someone recently said to me the fastest way to get burnt out in ministry is to do it with the wrong heart and in your own strength. This really stuck with me because I could really feel myself getting to this point and needing a break. So I began to ask God what it was he wanted. Does he really want task after task? Or does he want constant communion? I haven’t quite figured this out, but I truly want to do this work with a right heart. So from now on as I am doing a task I will ask the lord to show me what he wants me to learn in it. Praying that my heart would be right in doing his work.

Monday, December 12, 2016

Only God

Hebrews 11:2-3
“For by it the people of old received their commendation. By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made of things that are visible.”

Faith, that’s what we are talking about here. How do we know when it is by faith or by sight? One way I have always known this is by looking at something and you just know, only God. This was only done by and through God. This verse says that the people of old received their commendation or praise because of it. When I think of this I think of what I get praise for. Do I enjoy being praised for the things I can do in my own strength? Or do I enjoy the praise when others look on and say “only God”? For me it is when other look on and say only God. I want to look back on my life and one day say there is no way I could have done that in my own strength. I want others to remember me for the great faith I had in my creator. Knowing that I relied completely on him to do what only he can. I was pondering this idea today after thinking of a study I was going to do. It is by Jennifer Rothschild, she is blind and cant read like you and I can, but she has written tons of bible studies for women. I was amazed at how God could take a disability and change it for his glory. You look at her and think only God could do that. I think that is something the Lord is teaching me here in this place. He is teaching me to dream big. He is teaching me once again that there is nothing impossible for Him. All I have to do is wait on Him and His timing and he will blow my mind. If and only if I do this I know I will look back on my life and say only God.

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

When your Suffering Produces Hope

 “Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.”
- Romans 5:3-4
As I look around I wouldn’t say that I am suffering, I have food, shelter and all the essential things one would need. The one thing I would say is hard in life at the moment is being in a place that is secluded, in the middle of nowhere, and not being as comfortable that I would like. For example, having to walk into a church to use the restroom. Which really isn’t that bad, but I can easily become discontent in this place. I can easily get my eyes off of the one that brought me here, and look around and think, this is not what I saw my life looking like. That’s the point though, this was never my plan, this was always the Lords plan. As I sit here today I can still think of all the things that could make me discontent in this place. Things like comparison to the other locations or thinking of things back home.

            When I take my eyes off the things around me and place them on God alone I see that He really is working in mighty ways. I see that the discomfort and “suffering” I am facing is really just the Lord working His character into my life. I find that I am seeking the Lord deeper than I ever have and He is revealing himself to me more than I have ever known. If that is all I am here to learn or do, then I have a hope and a future that only he could give me. I have something better to look forward to. At the end of this I get to look in the mirror and see a better version of myself. The person God always wanted me to be. Molded and shaped into His image, not the image I thought, but the image He designed. I know that this time is producing an endurance in me I have never known before. He is working out His character in my life and producing a hope for future seasons to come. 

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

"How Long, O Lord?"

Psalm 13
How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
    How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I take counsel in my soul
    and have sorrow in my heart all the day?
How long shall my enemy be exalted over me?
Consider and answer me, O Lord my God;
    light up my eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death,
lest my enemy say, “I have prevailed over him,”
    lest my foes rejoice because I am shaken.
But I have trusted in your steadfast love;
    my heart shall rejoice in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord,
    because he has dealt bountifully with me.

As I have been in Browning Montana I have been really seeking the Lord’s will for my life. What is next? Do you want me to go back overseas? Lord what is your desire for my life? Am I to go home and live normal life? But how do I do that when I feel my life has changed so much? The only answer the Lord continually gives me is wait. Be patient. This is the most frustrating answer of all. I wish He would just tell me the plan. I wish He would just give me the details of my life. Yet He doesn’t, and I sit here still seeking. Which is exactly where the Lord wants me. He wants me sitting at His feet daily. In this psalm David asks the Lord “How long” four times. It takes David four times of asking before he changes His stance of worship. Instead of asking the Lord for answers he then begins to praise the Lord during his wait. David sees that God has been faithful throughout his whole life and He will continue to be faithful in the future. As I studied this Psalm I sensed God pulling on my heart to do the same thing. I sensed that He wanted me to stop asking who, what, where, when, and why; and begin praising Him for all the ways in which he has been faithful to give me answers. I know that if He answered me tomorrow I would not be ready for all the plans that he has for my life. My mind could not handle the details of the great things He wants to do. He has called me to seek Him and His character in this time. So today I will praise Him for the abundance of blessings He has placed in my life. Running hard after Him until He reveals his plans for my life one by one.